After a lot of difficulties in life, I have landed at Swami Ji's holy lotus feet. I want to remain under his feet for the rest of my life till my last breath. However, I don't want to talk about him with most people except our fellow devotees and disciples. That's because I want to keep my relationship with my beloved Swami to myself. I want to shield it. I don't want to be asked questions - Swami Ji's photo is my phone wallpaper, I get asked enough number of times as to why I have started running behind a monk or when people see me watch his videos, I get asked the same question. That's another thing that I will keep running behind this monk for the rest of my life and next lives as well till I attain Mukti. I am convinced that I had him in my previous life/lives as well. Unnecessary questions affect my peace of mind and I don't want to get diverted from my path. I haven't known Swami ji since a long time - Many have known him for decades now therefore are in a better position to be steady in this regard. After having met Swami ji personally, I want to keep this relationship more sacred. Swami ji does not like to be defended by us in public discussions. I don't want to reach a stage where I need to defend my Guru because I would not be able to tolerate anyone berating him. What is your view on sharing details about your relationship with your Guru with the general public / non followers? Do you keep your relationship with Swami ji private or do you love declaring it to the world (which is great and lovely!)? Would love to hear from you all.
Edit : I also feel that my relationship with Swami ji itself is a Sadhana of sorts. All my major transformations in life happened with his grace and after having come under his umbrella. Following his teachings itself is Sadhana. Further, since Sadhana is meant to be private so I deem what I talk to him about and my love for him private. I only tell our fellow devotees and disciples how much I love him because only they would be in a position to understand my love for my Guru.