Today was my first day at class.
But i couldnt study.
I was afraid that , if i remove my eyes from the board or if remove my eyes from the teacher or if i stop doing anything or if start talking to anyone then i will be scolden. This phobia i have been carryong for many years, and it kicks in other places too.
And the fuel of this phobia is –
1) The inner desire in me, that i should live the teacher, no matter what.
2) If he becomes angry with me, then something realy terrible wiĺl happen.
3) when i was small then i used to think that the teacher is everything. That if they are telling us to be quiet , then it is for our own good, but it was actually for their own good. Because the basic principle is that children should learn , and direct their energy, and not spend time in trying to suppress it, which i have done.
Can anyone of you guys suggest something on what i can do?
Swami ji said in his vedio that vedic chants help. And they do indeed help. But i have only learnt very few. (The swastivachan from sri suktam) and i dont feel like repeating the same chant many times. If i am able to learn more of them, and muster the courage to sing them softly in class, whenever i feel down, then that would be great .
Jai shri hari.
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