Apologies, for I took time to publish this one after sharing the first post here.
The energy of temple is just so electric and joyous when the devotees seated in the temple are waiting for Swami ji to arrive, singing songs for Mother Divine and Lord Narayan; for Swami’s evening discourse and darshan. 😊🙌
It was no different on the evening of Guru Purnima 2018.
As Swami ji begun to take question. There came a time when a little devotee of Swami ji, Pragya asked him a question. As she begun to ask Swami ji her question what I saw on Swami ji’s face was never seen before.
As she held the mic 🎤 Swami ji looked at her and smiled! The warmth in the smile was not just palpable, it was almost physical you could feel it sitting at a distance! I did. 🥺😲😍
Swami ji asked her, her name. She said Pragya.
Swami ji smiled So Big and So Warm!!! a and said He liked her name as Pragya meant the wisdom that is acquired by the virtue of experience! (Stating as I recall 🙂 )
Swami ji has briefly talked about wisdom in that sense in this blog. How awesome!
As that conversation was going on between Swami ji and little Pragya. Swami ji’s face has seem to have bloomed like a full lotus. Or like a pink-reddish hued full moon. Plus there was a smile on that full moon like face. I promise, it really did. In fact there is a discourse video which depicts that, shared in the end (especially the last two minutes).
I was just looking at Swami ji with perplexed and complaining eyes!!!👀👀👀
Wow.. He has never looked at me like he looked at Pragya! Well, do I have to be 10 years old again to see Swami face turn so warm and loving? How will I be that small? If I have a big body is it my fault!? I was angry.. Not at Pragya, neither myself nor Swami ji. Just that I was not so small. But more so because I had not felt this way! Seeing him as father and guardian.
She brought out the father in Him whose glimpses I got and not just father a guardian angel, a force so humongous like the blanket of sky covers the whole of earth. It was like that! There was SOOO much adoration, love, care and warmth in that look and exchange between her and Swami ji 🤗🌷😍
I was experiencing the child within, perplexed at that new found emotion and yearning. I didn’t expect to seek and see Swami like that. He has always been a Yogi for me. Meditation. That feeling sort of subsided even though I tried to push some buttons within to see if I seek him same way! But yes it didn’t die, just subsided!
That was the last day of the event. In the evening we were doing temple sewa, Pragya was also participating. Enthusiastically handing me over the flowers to be disposed off, she tagged along to me that night as if I was her big sister! She didn’t want the sewa to get over! 😂 and kept asking if there was some more task to be done. I held her hand and we walked till the flower disposal bin where temple flowers are disposed. Not for moment did she rest! She was swaying in excitement around like a pup and delightfully buzzing bee.
So much love I received from her and sweets!!! At dinner that night was round-round jalebi! Giggling she fed me so many of them (with her own hands!) That is when I don’t really like sugary treats!
Even though it has been hard for me to relate to Swami ji beyond a Yogi (well it just depict my one pointed focus more projected on him, to meditate, otherwise Swami ji is felt more like a phenomenon at different dimension(s) of existence. I feel like seeing through air not even glass! He can be this and that! And then it also shows the transformation of the one who experiences it. The grace and the effort. Both!)
To add this, it was my father’s birthday last month and in the evening I happened to see Swami ji pic on a devout devotee’s whatsapp status. I saw it and realised, it was Swami ji’s birthday picture; clad in black, who can forget the kirtan of 30 Nov 2020!
I blurted out looking at it. – Today is my Father’s birthday! Oh my! What did that want to convey. And just moments before I saw this, we were to celebrate birthday evening. The devotee showered me with sooo many wishes greeting. 😌😍😃🎁🎉🎉🎉
Just not this, the one question that I remember from Swaminar, when Swami ji used to answer each question, one question was from one of the devotee who had visited ashram.
He wrote on the question to Swami ji (rephrasing)-
“When I saw you in the temple at ashram I experienced feeling and energy of my father and mother! His parents had passed away…
Swami ji straight response to that question was – Fill the initiation form!”
Generally Swami ji approach is to wait before initiation as he has reiterated time and again. That question remained with me till now even before the ones I asked Swami!
This question really found a place in my heart! I don’t recall my own questions that I asked as clearly as this one 😂❤
Pragya @ Guru Purnima 2018😍😌🥰😘
And here is a discourse where in you may see the gentle glimpse of what I talked about especially the last 2 minutes.