Do you have a Guru? In case anyone ever queried me in the past, I would be like – Naa… who needs a Guru when life and situations teach you everything. And LIFE is the greatest Guru or teacher of all. So, I was never searching for any guru or guide or rather, I was never ready to surrender.
I was leading a pretty normal life – a good family and a financially stable background. I had good relations, of course there were small ups and downs, but you learn to navigate them right?
I used to have questions like – Why this life? What is the purpose of it all? What happens after death? Is there an afterlife? But, I never felt the need to do any seeking as such.
A close friend attended the basic retreat with Sirshree, the founder of Tej Gyan Foundation and she shared her experience. Her life had changed drastically, she was now more positive, healthy, lively and happy and so she heavily recommended it.
But I would postpone saying I was not ready yet for any thing spiritual yet. One part of my mind was filled with skepticism as I hadn’t heard complimentary things about many of the well-known Guru’s then. My friend would allay my fears saying, ‘Trust me, it will be good for you. Your life will change.’
The day finally dawned 4 years later. In the meanwhile, I had tried to read Sirshree’s book, had attended on of his discourses, had listened to many on TV sparking my interest. So, I finally registered in April 2017 for the retreat.
Attending the retreat was not a cakewalk by any means. It was Ashram living – simple food, sharing toilets and other facilities, no phones and being in Maun (Silence) for the next 6 days. Thus, began my spiritual journey without me knowing much about it.
Sirshree’s core teaching is – Sweekar (Acceptance). He says acceptance is the key. Accept everything – situations, people or incidents. Always ask – Can I accept this? With acceptance, your resistance diminishes, and as resistance reduces, the solutions emerge.
The second day early morning of the retreat, I woke with a splitting headache, hyper-acidity my old nemesis was at work again. I recalled the sweekar mantra and I told myself – I want to do this retreat and I literally felt a band of resistance around my chest loosening.
I went to the kitchen area, and miraculously at early morning 5 o clock, someone offered me a glass of hot water. I drank it, and I puked once. All the acid was gone in one go.
Earlier the headache would last till mid-afternoon and then the puking process would start and my whole day and the next day would be wasted. Sweekar mantra had worked! My headache was gone fully in an hour, and I attended the rest of the retreat comfortably. I used the sweekar mantra many a times during the retreat – waiting for a toilet queue or the food and many such situations and it worked each time.
This was the beginning of my faith and I participated fully in all the activities and listened to all the discourses with full concentration. I experienced peace and enjoyed the anonymity during my stay.
My faith was tested again on the third day when I was asked to fill in a form – A question said – Do you accept Sirshree as your Guru? I was not prepared for the answer. But I wanted to complete the retreat and explore it further so I answered with an affirmative.
But that was the last time I had any doubts. After completing the retreat there were many testing situations and events where I applied the teachings and they worked each time, strengthening my faith and belief. I had totally accepted Sirshree as my Guru. Surrendering my ego.
गुरुर्ब्रह्मा ग्रुरुर्विष्णुः गुरुर्देवो महेश्वरः । गुरुः साक्षात् परं ब्रह्म तस्मै श्री गुरवे नमः ॥
The word Guru means the one who dispels darkness. One who leads you from ignorance to knowledge, from darkness to light. I bow in reverence and eternal gratitude to Sirshree, my Guru.
My life was fine before him, but it became even better. I began a regular practice of meditation which brought in immense benefit and as my sadhna continues, all the angles of my life – social, financial, physical mental and spiritual have progressed with his grace.
Anant Koti Dhanywad Sirshree – Thank you for being in my life!!!