These days no one looks at the door
In anticipation of your arrival
You in the bright silk saffron robe
Splendid than a thousand suns !
Like a cool breeze
You whoosh through the devotees
Glance at many
Bestowing grace on all.
It’s all still the same
March has gone
October has come
Life goes on and on and on..
How has this come to pass
600 days and nights alas!
Where have you gone
My light of lights, my heart of hearts.
Truth be told, Each day
I feel your invisible presence
In chaos and in peace
In beauty and in Bliss!
But who my Lord
Upon whom your glance has fell even once,
Hasn’t felt the same
Over and over again.
Is that enough my Dear!
Why this forced solitude
Why this feeling then
That you are close yet not near.
Who am I talking to?
Is it you or me?
What difference does it make
You listen all the same.
Or have you grown fond of
This vacation spirit in us
We come home for 4 days
Then vacate a hundred more..
This glimpse that you have shown
Of the Home Eternal,
Why play with us and Grace with your glance,
then mire us in karma and see how we dance!
Of what use are all the gifts
When the heart’s not in it
Tendencies propel my Lord
But I don’t pretend to be a perfect being.
Not anymore not anymore
I am sick and tired of make believe
Pretense has eaten me from within
At your doors I stand like a leper.
You know all I have been
You know all I will be
What’s the fun then to you
To keep me lingering.
Take me there where I belong
Wherever you are, there I belong.
Sitting by your feet, those pink divine lotus feet
All I could feel is ‘Home sweet Home’!
Note: I have stolen the title from the first chapter of ‘A Million Thoughts‘.