How difficult is it to be honest with your feelings? Just ask yourself, “Are you loyal with your feelings?” Honestly speaking, I am not sure if I have ever been honest with my feelings. Sometimes we only want to lie down on the bed and watch Netflix but we cannot and if we do, uninvited guest come called guilt. Honestly, I spend my Sundays doing nothing. Sundays are my favourite and I hope it is everyone’s favourite too. Sometimes I feel guilty but I also believe that we should have a day to our self.
I think we have totally forgotten about ourselves especially as youngsters. Feelings…….What does that even mean? I don’t know. I will share a harsh truth of this world – we are allowed to show our anger, hatred, ego and so on freely but we cannot show our love, care, concerns with that much freedom because when you try to show such feelings, people start giving you funny names and labels. Actually we all don’t feel angry or non-lovable all the time. We do care for others, we do change our perspectives for others but we don’t tell them because we often think that people would think that we quickly change our colours but that cannot be truth.
I cannot forget that moment when I met my very cute friend Lavanya on the first day in hostel. We had a big fight on our very first meeting but I always wanted to apologise as I made a mistake but my ego always came in between. Thanks to the accounts subject, we became good friends. As she was a non-medical student, she faced difficulty in accounts and I was there for her. With the passage of time, we knew each other and become very close friends and our relationship turned into something more than close friends. Our hatred turned into unconditional love. We both laugh together whenever we remember that big fight.
So if we never expressed what we feel, then we will have not this strong bond within us. So, we should be a little honest with our feelings. I want my heart and brain in one place and I really don’t have any idea how that will be possible but if we will start out with a little effort, we might get there too slowly. I love myself because I do what I want to do not all the time but most of the time. Sometimes people may think I express too much but that’s their problem and I am just happy being myself. I tried to change myself, even now but then I felt that I don’t even enjoy my own company. So I just cannot do that now. Be yourself. If I want to change myself for the better, then I will be ok with that but for others, I don’t even want to try.
I just want to say to you all, “Just try to be honest with your feelings”. Ignore this world and what other people will think about you. I just remember a quote which I have heard or read many times, “If we have to think what others will think, then what they will think?”
So, just hear yourself out. Be loyal to yourself. I am not telling you to ignore others but keep “you” as your priority.
PS: From now onwards, I will post blogs on the 2nd and 4th Sunday of every month.