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After aarti, we were asked to rush to the meeting room. This is it! It’s time to say hello to my Divine! People were already sitting/waiting outside the meeting room. I took my boots off and grabbed one of the chairs, they were nicely arranged in one single line. We had four people ahead of us, and one more last person after. The last person was our dear “Love”, waiting with us, holding his guitar in his hand.

Although, there were a few butterflies in my stomach, “There is no need to be so sentimental”, I warned myself. Shubs knows me most of my life and has never seen me crying. I remembered my 1st trip to USA, Shubs and my dad were in the car with us. They both were crying till we reached to the Mumbai airport. And, Me? Not a tear!

Shubs was there, holding my hand at my dear late husband’s funeral six year back, and also, when mom passed away almost 19 years back, she saw me calm and collected both times. I don’t get emotional in front of people, that’s just how I have become over the years. To be truthful, when I was little, that was a whole different story.

But today, all the bets are off! I cannot hold my tears rushing down. Very concerned Shubs, warned me, “Sona, please try not to cry when we go inside, I am not sure what’s happening to you today”. I nodded yes, I agreed, and decided to put myself together. Now, I was feeling cool and not weeping anymore. I got my “chill person” hat on. I was good to go.

Swami Vidyananda ji gave us masks to wear. We were waiting for our name to be called. It was no more than 10 min but it felt like an eternity. Finally, he called our names.

We both kept our belongings on the chair outside, wore our masks. I opened the door and we entered the room. The meeting room was big and long. At the far end of the room, there HE was, sitting on his asana. As we walked towards him, I started feeling emotional again. HE was looking all divine and glorious. His halo was so bright, spreading love and kindness all over the room. His face is so shiny, as if, he is taking 3 facials a day!

I couldn’t look directly in HIS eyes, which was strange to me. I always look straight in the eyes and talk to people. But little did I know, HE is not just a person. He gave us a gentlest smile and said “Hello Sona, Hello Akshata (Shubs name), please have a sit”, how are you both doing”?

I just mumbled, “Good, thank you for asking”.

Not paying keen attention to his kindest greeting, my brain immediately wondered off thinking, “How does he know our names? This ashram is amazing, do they always tell him the names before devotees walks inside the meeting room? But we walked in immediately after the previous person left, there was no time in between to give him that info! Impressive, Nice!”

He looked at me with a very mischievous twinkle in his eyes and said (something on this line) “Sona, they don’t tell me who is walking in every time, plus they wouldn’t know, how to tell me, which one is Sona and Akshata. I would not know from them.”

Ok, now I am in shock! My mind: “What? How did he know what I was thinking? Can he read my mind? Is he reading my mind? How would he know my name? How does he know I am Sona and not Shubs? Does he know who I am? OMG! Does he know my every thought? Ok, stop thinking Sona. Just breathe! Just breathe!”

Never the less, I just gave him an apologetic smile, and sat on the floor next to Shubs, respecting the distance between HIM and us. And of course! My tears started rolling down. Words refused to come out my mouth. Why does these tears never listen to me? Why do they show up when they are not supposed to? I am thinking in my mind — “Go away tears, calm down Sona, put yourself together, or else he will think I am such weeping willow; I had no words to express”.

He looked at me, oh so gently, like a mother would look at her colicky child. To break the silence, HE mentioned us that it is a good time to ask him a question if we have any. I was in no position to ask him any question. So, I just looked at Shubs. Finally, she started talking, she said something alone this line, “Swami ji, I came here with Sona, I am not familiar with your teachings, but I just would like to have your blessings for my family and me. I am very happy to be here”. He blessed her and her family and told her that they will always have his blessings. It was beautiful. I was very happy that she received the Divine’s blessings.

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