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As I came out, I saw Shubs waiting outside for me. I jumped up and down with her and said he did it; he accepted me as his disciple, and he is my Guru now! 19th November, 2021, Kartik Purnima. Best day of my life!! My Guruji, the Divine himself, has accepted me! Shubs, did you hear that? The Divine has accepted me.

The Matsya (fish) avatar, the first of the ten main avatars of Lord Vishnu, came into being on Kartik Purnima. I have heard that Devotees who worship Lord Vishnu on Kartik Purnima are said to gain immense fortune.

This I can’t deny, as I have received the immense fortune of many lifetimes on this day.

· I found my Guru (or he found me), and HE accepted me the way I am. At least, now he made sure, in this life form, I won’t forget about it.

· He made my vessel pure, so my path to reach the Divine is clear.

· No, wait for a year or two, no filling out the form, nothing! I wouldn’t have cared about the wait; I could have waited an eternity for him to accept me. My surrender to him was and always is, from my purest heart. I gave him all of me!

· Neither do I desire to achieve any materialist or emotional gain anymore, nodded I wish to solve any life issues. The “want” from the duality world got crushed and vanished.

· I am fully alive, without emptiness or “why” questions.

· My mother Divine herself, holding my hand and guiding me on the path of enlightenment.

And the list continues……

The only thing I am sad about is him taking my bad Karma. I had no idea that he would do that at the ritual. Why did he do that? I can’t bear a thought, him being in any discomfort, and he took it all my wrongdoings? It was killing me, but I didn’t say anything then. It still hurts so bad. I don’t know how to fix it.

Later that evening, we dropped in at Karuna Jim’s place to pick up our books around 9:30 pm. With the biggest smile, she welcomed us in. I realized it must have been a long day for Guruji, and after all the meetings, he signed all 25+books just for me. I felt pain in my heart, knowing I had given him so much trouble. He should have been resting and not signing those books. But the pile of books was already with him, and it was done. I felt terrible bothering Karuna Ji at odd hours to collect the books.

While at her home, she offered us Guruji’s favorite halwa (prasad) to celebrate my Diksha. It was genuinely yummy; we were lucky to indulge in HIS favorite sweet. I saw a large photo frame in her room with Guruji and her family. I adored that picture and wished if I had a photo of him to pray every day when I head back to Dallas. As everyone knows, Guruji doesn’t like selling his photos, so getting any of his pictures for the frame is very hard. From nowhere, she handed a beautiful image of Guruji wearing a black robe, standing all dashing, and giving that smile, which melts your heart instantly. She said, “looks like this photo was just waiting for you to come and collect it; it’s yours now.” I was ecstatic and so humbled by her gesture. I was holding Guruji’s little idol in that photo.

If you ever get a chance to visit lovely Karuna ji’s home, make sure to humbly bow to that chair which has a beautiful cover on it. That is where the Divine sat when he was visiting her home.

Before we left, she gave us a few apples as Guruji’s prasad, which we accepted with love.

Now, I have received his blessings; I have a Guru, I was lucky enough to taste one of his favorite sweet dishes, I have every one of his books signed by him, and I have his majestic photo with me. I came empty-handed, empty heart at Sri Badrika Ashram, and just in three days, I am leaving this heavenly place with an immense fortune. Thank you, Kartik Purnima; I am forever in your debt.

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