Please read part one here.
After my meltdown in the backyard, I walked inside the house with a strong urge to meditate and connect with the Divine. That was an alien and strange thought for me. Last time I meditated when I was eight years old. I don’t remember the exact year to be honest but was a long time for sure.
I was surprised of my own thought. I googled “meditation” (can you believe it? I had to google word Meditation! lol) and found one beautiful guided mediation by Lorie Ladd. Her meditation was different than what I had learned at the Ramakrishna Math (Ashram).
Guess what? I sobbed the entire meditation. The process was painful, but after it was done, I felt light and loved. I felt really good. I was feeling happy. Somehow, I realized what I wanted (not crying, duh!). I just wanted to be loved. I slept really well that night. Next morning, I continued my research on google for meditation, spirituality etc. One of the talk shows of Kat Fowler (love her) mentioned, write a letter to your angels and tell them what you are looking for. I can find my soul mate (that’s what I thought I was missing) and find happiness, it’s a win-win situation. I was desperate enough so I thought “what not”! I wrote a letter –
“My dear Angles,
…. Bla bla bla…(much boring and non-important stuff)…
He is handsome, tall and a happy person. He is wealthy financially and spiritually. Funny, kind and loving. He is my age range and with no drama in his life. He has successful children who are not dependent on him. He is successful, rich business man who is ready to share the experience of the spirituality and inner light. He is super smart, well educated, well-traveled and very attractive. He takes care of his body and in excellent shape. He loves to travel and experience new things. He has no bad addictions. He loves me very much. He loves animals. I love him. Please my angles contact his angles and tell them about me. Please arrange our meeting as he is ready too. The universe is ready, arrange our reunion here on this earth now. We both need each other to evolve to our maximum capacity together.
Thank you so much my angles, I wait for your reply.
Much love, Sona
As I finished writing this letter (are you done laughing yet?), I was shocked of my own thoughts. I am neither a spiritual person nor looking for any light towards the enlightenment. Why did I write this? Well, it was too late by now, my thoughts were out in the universe already. As long as I get that successful, handsome dude, I was ok with the arrangement.
Ok, by now, I think you all know where my life story is going…. Most of us have met this handsome dude I was describing to my angels. I wrote this letter on Oct 7, 2021 at 11:48 pm.
Next day, in google search, one of the meditation videos was very interesting and informative. This monk in the video was extremely charismatic, handsome and had a bright aura. I watched that video, then I continued with another video… and it went on for more than 4–5 hours. I couldn’t stop. His name was Om Swami. Who is this, Swami? How come his name is just Om? Why is it not Swami Om, like Swami Vivekananda? I was confused with his name, but was very clear about the message he was giving. I liked what he was saying, his voice, his knowledge and his looks (come on, whom I am kidding!). Om Swami was looking very handsome.
I started watching his YouTube channel. I couldn’t stop. One week went by, on 13th October I watched the most beautiful and divine video of Om Swami “Vision of the Goddess”. Now, I was fully inspired, I started meditating three time a day. I downloaded the Black Lotus app, before I knew, I become a member of os.com. Somehow in my heart I knew Om Swami was no stranger to me, but how is that possible?
I ordered his book “If Truth Be Told: A Monk’s Memoir” from Amazon on 21st of October. I thought it may take three/four days to come. But the book was at my doorsteps early next morning. The book says published in Coppell, TX, which is 20 min from my home. I was in puzzle, and till the day I can’t solve it.
By this time, I had forgotten about “the letter” to my angles.
Now, I was on role… I had to get to know Om Swami and his teachings to the core. Now he was no more just a handsome dude for me. He was the one I was waiting for; I knew him in this life and beyond. There was nothing but immense respect for him in my heart. That same week with all my heart, I wrote “What do I want” in my notes (sent it out in the universe):
1. Visit Om Swami
2. Receive Diksha from Om Swami
3. Om Swami is my Guru and he has accepted me
4. Focus on Meditation and Sadhana next two years……
PS: Please note that is blog was not written to offend anyone’s feelings. There is no hiding, pretending from my side. I am truly sorry if I have hurt your feelings by telling my truth.