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After lunch, we sat on the swing for 20–30 mins and then decided to head back to the room. Shubs was tired and sleepy so she decided to take a nap. I still had a lot of energy so I decide to visit river Giri. Somehow, I knew where I was going, plus the signs on the walkway helped as well. I literally ran down to meet Giri ma. I was missing her so much. You may ask, how can you miss a river that you never seen before? To be honest, I don’t have an answer for this. I ran down, I was so close to her. I was so happy, felt so much bliss in my heart. I touch her water, I prayed to her. I paid my respect.
There, that was the tree I was standing next to, looking at Giri in my meditation. The rock was right there as expected and Giri ma was smiling at me, moving gently with a grace. The wind was blowing my hair and everything just paused for a sec, this is it! This is exactly what I experienced in my meditation. There, I was standing, I was home!
Everything was so familiar and harmonious, there was nothing alien for me in the Ashram. I was supposed be here, just as planned. I came back to the room and rested a bit. It was 3 pm in the afternoon. I decided to visit the temple. And there HE was, standing right in front of me. At a first glance I noticed that he was wearing his dashing red outfit with one large yellow garland and another smaller orange garland with red and while flowers. Perfection is the only word I can use it here. I was so shy to stare at him first, but with all my courage, I raised my head and looked at him. There HE was, looking so magnificent, glorious and pristine. There is nothing more beautiful than Bhagwan Sri Hari ji. He gently smiled at me and welcomed me in his temple.
We knew each other. He is my Krishna from the frame at my grandma’s home. I met him there first when I was three years old. He is my Vitthal from Pandharpur temple. He is my Kanha, who use to play and talk with me all the time when I was little. But then, I lost him for so many years. And, here He is, standing right there, gently smiling at me.
I felt sad because he left me or did, I left him? was I mad at myself for erasing him from my life? Or was I mad that he didn’t remind me of him? Sushree Svadha was singing melodious chants and songs to Bhagwan Sri Hari ji. I sat there as I watched both of them. It was so serene; her voice was full of devotion and love. I felt so lucky and humbled just to be there. Bhagwan Sri Hari ji allowed me to witness something so beautiful today.
He helped me remember all the fun times we use to have together. Somehow the time in the middle just melted away and we both became kids again. I had so much to tell him, but then, he knew everything already. I was so delighted and pleased that I am with him again. He was always there; I was the one who was lost.
My favorite spot at the ashram is now sitting on the swing. That is my happy place. I love swings, and the view from that swing is just so beautiful.
There was a Lalita Sahasranama reading in the temple. We didn’t know what that was, but we came and sat with everyone as one should do. This Lalita Sahasranama was still going on, it was very long. First, I had no idea what they were chanting about. Oh! It is about my Divine ma. Wow! She is so gentle, yet so powerful! I fell in love with Lalita Sahasranama. It’s every word had a strong pull and I was floating in that bliss.
Evening dinner was perfect, it was very tasty. We didn’t talk to anyone there. After dinner was Aarti, Bhagwan Shi Hari’s Aarti. I didn’t know the words of the aarti, didn’t know what I was supposed to do or sing. Didn’t know the rhythm of the claps, should we clap, or not? Are there many aarti’s or just one? What about Ganpati Aarti? OMG! So much confusion and so many questions. We walked in the temple. First came absolutely breathtaking Shankha Naad (three times). Entire temple was filled with magic waves and love all around us. I forgot all my worries and questions about the aarti.
Bhagwan Sri Hari’s aarti was the most beautiful aarti in the world! Now, I don’t want to sing any other aarti’s. I was thinking, how come I don’t know this aarti? I never heard of it before. It’s not in my aarti book that my mom gave me. Hmm! interesting. I noticed that Bhagwan Sri Hari Ji is very happy with his aarti, so was I and everyone in the temple.
After aarti, we went to our room, outside it was dark now. We did our meditation, then I crashed in the bed and before I know I was fast asleep.