Boasted to myself and a few friends of how I started meditation with a 12 day pilgrimage to vipasana centre in nearly 8 years back and took it to a different level last 2 years guided by Black Lotus app and Swami ji renderings of instructions delivered featherlight . A little while back I thought the coronation as a YOGI was just round the corner . Then I can be at the feet of Swami ji to seek blessings for my NextStep.
But alas something happened over last 40 days leaving me in a confused mood last couple of days . I had taken the 40 day goal pack LIVE LIKE A CHAMPION but have taken possibly 60 days and yet struggling to complete the 40th day . I had a tough last week getting edgy many a times and lost my cool on each occasion . What a shame for a seasoned meditator like me . It was the first time something like this has happened .since I started with Black Lotus . What went wrong I wondered 🤔
It’s as if I am a frozen river or perhaps  a rock in the midst of a seemingly flowing river of the world around me .
Not surprising , as I spent most of my career in the oil business trying to discover oily rocks deep inside Mother Earth . Yet inspite of all my rigidities , I negotiated the uncertain and non linear world of oil keeping my inner self on a straight path . I have since retired and by divine grace got connected to Swami ji . Thus began my so called second innings in life .
The rock in me has perhaps got exposed as I have started searching deep inside me now that the corporate storm has blown over  . Perhaps deep inside and unknowingly I have been fossilised.Â
Has it touched my DNA ? Can I break this rock ?🪨 and lose myself in the river of life to finally merge with the ocean , a mission well articulated in this wonderful goal  packÂ
My journey however continues and indeed I am blessed to be under the umbrella of Swami ji and life time gooru’s who have guided me all along .Â
Thank you so much for being part of this story and your continued guidance and sharing will help me eventually merge joyfully with the river of life .Â
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