Namaste all,

It’s been long that I have written anything after sharing my fist post with Os.me family. I wasn’t really ready to share anything after that but today as I felt again to write, I will try my best to be useful for someone who is reading this.

Living in a Solitude and doing Sadhana makes you a different person and this new change can be only felt in person. It would be hard for anyone to explain what you feel but if I have to put it into words I would just say that your soul gets injected with lots of love and empathy for all which was a difficult thing to imagine for me prior to my Sadhana as I use to think that you could only love those who you feel comfortable or connected with and simply avoid people who distracts you.

But then I found a change in me, now I could avoid such people also with love and care and without showing any signs of frustration or hurting anyone’s feelings.

Love is true nature of us and Sadhana brings you closer to your ture nature!!

The whole purpose of Sadhna is to tame our mind so that we could reach intellect who is superior to mind and superior to intellect is the inner Purusha. It takes a lot of time, practice and patience but we all would get there some day with the grace of Guru ji and our sincere efforts.

It’s been seven months now for me living like this in a beautiful surroundings of Ganges and Himalayas, practicing my Sadhana and I know its not long enough to find anything about the true nature of self because first five-six months I just got to a level where I could sit comfortably in one position, cross legged for japa and meditation. It was tough and still it is but through Guruji’s support and guidance I have determined myself to not give up.

Lot of food habits I had to change just to sit comfortably for meditation. It is said that one or two years just goes in preparation of your body and mind, well it also depends on person to person but I am talking in general and considering  our regular routines of Kalyuga. It is not at all necessary to come to solitude to start with though.

Why I came to solitude then?

Because I had already given a year or two practicing at my home and then I could access to my inner guidance and follow whatever instructions came along. Instructions will also vary for each individual and to tap into a level where you could understand whether it is a real inner guidance or your mind playing around you have to give hundred percent in your practice. I would only give 30-60 minutes every day but I was very hopeful and positive about my hard work.

I mostly worked around my body flexibility through Asanas and Pranayams for inner cleansing of mind and body. I hardly did any long meditation back then. I also made lot of diet changes and the major one was turning form a hard core non vegetarian diet to a satvic diet without onions and garlic.

I was living a very Rajasic life style and my body was not at all supporting any meditative asanas.

So anyone who could relate to my early my lifestyle, be ready to give up lot of things if you wish for any spiritual growth. That is the harsh truth.

Things changed gradually and now I could sit down for meditation  without any numbness around my legs which was a hard thing for me to imagine if I would ever achieve it.

Now the focus is just to increase my sittings because only then we could enter the different realm of Dhayan which we all have read or heard about. It is said that only after 120-180 minutes of steady meditative asana one could start experiencing the unexpected. Before that all is mind game or efforts to put our mind into focus. But post 120 minutes mind gradually start giving up so your efforts also vanishes. 

I do some reading occasionally because the target is to find my own truth through personal experience and just reading theory would not take us there as also mentioned by Guruji.

Do let me know if whatever I have written here was of any use?

P.S For all those who are just waiting for the initiation round to begin, just pick one Sadhana out of many Sadhanas that guruji has told us about through books and apps and try and see how you get along with it. Trust me it is not easy at all. Your determination and self control would be checked at the core level and that’s what guruji wants us to do.

His grace is always upon us whether we get to sit for the initiation or not. I myself have not got any initiation till date but I know when I am ready I will but till then I can’t just wait and watch. He has given us the tools already! So better use it and thought my personal experience I can surely tell that it will fill you up with strength and determination to walk on the path of divine with full devotion and love. It will eliminate all sorts of doubts and fear within.

We are all very lucky to be under his shade of grace as now even without getting the initiation we are equipped with tools of Sadhanas. Walk on it because he would also say the same after initiation. He will give us a similar task, so it’s better we do our homework prior to his personal guidance.

May all you be happy and healthy.

Will write again if you all want me to.

Hari Om Tat sat.

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