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So iam the problem.ย 

You know why coz iam stupid.ย 

I don’t know how but people get comfortable around me. You would think, this is good.ย 

Nah my friend.its not good. Coz they get comfortable enough to tell me their problems /secrets.ย 

It’s be like ” so I broke up with him,i dont know why iam telling this to you. I haven’t told anyone about this except you.” and there iam like ๐Ÿ˜ถ ” then. why. me.”ย 

Iam one of those persons who will take your problems as mines. You tell me about your worries now it’s our worries. I be helping you like it’s me who is in problem.ย 

This one time I understood about how people’s bad action, behaviours, emotions, feeling are the result of past trumas and experiences.ย 

And now people mistreat me or behave badly, I will just feel sorry for them coz I understand where its coming from. Iam kind of justifying their action. And they keep repeating their action Coz there is NO PROPER CONSEQUENCES.ย 

And this is a problem.ย 

See I am scared of people getting comfortable around me and somehow iam the one making you feel comfortable.ย 

Like I don’t want to know about your problem Coz I will be thinking about it for days but then I also want to hear it coz i dont want you to suffer alone and I know how it feels to keep everything in.ย 

You know those people who can’t watch horror movies Coz they scared.ย 

I can’t watch sad movies/series or can’t listen to sad songs. I be crying over movies. My family used to make fun of me coz i be crying like it’s my story. ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

My mother would never let me watch movies Coz obviously crying. And even now I have to make my mind before watching any sad movie. I will search about it on Google before watching it. If it has sad ending I would prepair myself beforehand or won’t watch the movie. ๐Ÿ˜‚

“Shershaah” movie of sidharthย  is watched and loved by everyone and here iam who is still preparing myself to watch it. I listened this movies tracks this month only. Sooo u can imagine me. Iam too much. I knoww๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

My family share filtered stuff with me. Coz i be crying for anyone. Known/unknown doesn’t matter. My tears don’t discriminate ๐Ÿ˜‚

I blame my mother too. She is emotional. But iam on another level. Me and my mother use to cry watching ‘Indian idols’๐Ÿ˜‚ contestants sad background story. ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ But atleast she don’t cry watching movies.ย 

So this is the problem.ย 

And being a observer is bad too. Coz now you be worried about making people comfortable and on the other hand you are observing their actions too. Ahh its like, iam not done with one thing so I created the other.ย 

It’s like you sitting with your group and you observe 1 person disrespecting the other and other person not saying anything about it. And now all you can do is feel sorry for both of them coz you know they are going through stuffs.ย 

Aaahhhh… Its a big topic and I can’t cover it even if I write 100 pages..ย 

Iam concluding this with that, that I need to control myself. And iam saying this to me from last 10 year.ย 

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