It’s a Saturday morning! I get up, eagerly awaiting to read Swamiji’s latest blog. Alas, it’s not there! 🙁  It takes me a few seconds to realize that this month has five Saturdays, and today is the last day of the month. Damn it! 😌 Swamiji posts His blogs only on the first and third Saturdays of the month. I am sure, some of you will be able to relate to my sweet “disappointment”🙃🙂, which has happened to me quite a few times by now.

The night before Swamiji’s blogs are due, I am literally drooling, thinking of how I would get up in the morning, make myself a cup of coffee, open my laptop, and be reading Swamiji’s latest blog, devouring each and every sentence in it. Sometimes I even go to bed silently trying to guess the topic Swamiji would be writing on (never guessed one though, in case you are wondering! 🤓 ). I go through this whole plethora of elated emotions in anticipation of Swamiji’s latest wisdom. And when that moment comes, that I open my laptop on Saturday mornings and find a new piece, written by Swamiji, I get overjoyed like a kid in a candy store.

I hold my breath and start reading the blog quickly, yearning to know what follows next. I gobble down Swamiji’s profound wisdom, like a hungry person, who has not had a good meal for a few days. Halfway through the post, I find myself slowing down, consciously trying to prolong the pleasure I get from connecting to Swamiji’s Light & Wisdom. I want that euphoria to last a little longer. When I come across a joke on Mulla :), I know the end is not too far. Then, I r-e-a-ll-y  s-l-o-w  d-o-w-n, and start going through each and every line repeatedly, pretending to myself that I haven’t quite got what Swamiji has been saying in the last few sentences. I just don’t want for this delight, the deep-rooted contentment I get from reading His insights, to vanish as yet. So I consciously keep prolonging the time to finish covering the piece.  

When it comes to the very last few sentences, my reading becomes slower than even that of a turtle crossing the road. I cover a sentence, then lift my eyes off my laptop screen and look into an open space to reflect on what Swamiji has been saying and trying to impart to His readers. I then look back at my screen and re-read the same sentence a couple of more times. I am cautious enough not to scroll my laptop’s mouse pad too far down. I am not ready to see Swamiji’s signature “Peace. Swami” adios yet. Instead, I scroll back up a bit to re-read a few passages in order to possibly find some new hidden messages. But the truth is, I am subconsciously (or consciously 🙂 ) trying to give myself some more time to come to terms with the fact, that the article and the joy associated with reading it is about to be over. The contentment that I get reading Swamiji’s blogs cannot be translated into words. So much wisdom packed in every single blog! Mind-blowing at times!

But wait a second, there might be a surprise at the end. I feel super ecstatic again. My eyes are beaming with joy. Swamiji might have some “important announcements”, that He shares right after His posts from time to time. What a treat these are! It’s like when your stomach is full, but there is always some space left for a premium dessert. “Zoom” announcements make my heart skip a beat, always. It’s the best bonus that complements His blogs. Something so very precious to look forward to!!!

Finally, after completing my long reading “voyage” of Swamiji’s blog, I fold my hands into a “namaste”, thanking Him for one more piece of timeless wisdom, for His blazing Light, that shines forth through every single word and in between the lines. I then go through some of the comments posted by the community and carry on with my day, reflecting upon Swamiji’s insights. The following day, I usually read the blog again, or at least those parts that have spoken directly to me, and then post my little comment. The assimilation of His teachings though continues long after the reading is over.

I understand, that Swamiji’s blogs are not here to serve us as some intellectual or emotional entertainment. They kindly “invite” each one of us to take charge of our lives, to employ concrete steps in order to implement new healthy habits. His blogs graciously “solicit” us to live our full potential, to be the change we want to see in the world. Swamiji only speaks the Truth and never judges anyone (even when I fail Him at times (sincerely sorry, Swamiji 🙏 ). I am yet to meet anyone else of this caliber in flesh and bones in this day and age.  And this is just the beginning. This is what He stands for, when I take Him as a “form”, as a person.

Talk about Him as a Guru! The strong blazing Light, that provides us with a playground, an arena, in which to excel ourselves as players, as His children, bathing under the beams of His scorching Light. When this shift from perceiving Him as a person to connecting to Him as a pool of immense Energy takes place, the road is irreversible. One cannot resist those rays, which are stronger than a thousand suns, anymore. One has found one’s home, the True Home. This does not mean that our paths will have no more obstacles. In fact, the reverse is often true, as, our karmas get expedited in a way. However, there is a reassurance, that the process of dissolution (of our egoic selves) will be less painful. We are no longer alone.

An American singer-songwriter, Portia Nelson, was attending a writers’ workshop when she was asked to compose her autobiography in 5 short chapters. This is what she has put down. Maybe some of you have come across this already.

Chapter 1

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost… I am helpless.

It isn’t my fault.

It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter 2

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend that I don’t see it.

I fall in again.

I can’t believe I am in the same place.

But, it isn’t my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter 3

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it is there.

I still fall in.. it’s a habit.. but, my eyes are open.

I know where I am.

It is my fault.

I get out immediately.

Chapter 4

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

Chapter 5

I walk down another street.

We can surely see our own stories in the above. We have all fallen into those traps, those patterns many a time. Even when we identify those squalid pits, we still keep falling into them out of a habit life afterlife. This is simply because we have programmed ourselves to lead compulsive lives. Only a True Master has the power to expedite this understanding in us. This realization without a Guru may take lifetimes. Only through the intensity of a Master’s Light can we crawl out of these deeply engraved pits faster.

Swamiji through his kind teachings in blogs & otherwise invites us to take a new road, to awaken to a new way of living life consciously. His beams of Light selflessly continue shining on our Paths, showing us the way and anesthetizing us from some of those very painful bumps on our Journeys back Home. Blessed we truly are to have a real living Master. In eternal Gratitude to our beloved Swamiji. Jai Sri Hari! 🙏🏻💞