When I was 4 years old my father would come back from the office in the evening. Make a bubble bath for me, he would shampoo me and I would shampoo him sometimes. Then we both would proceed to eat our dinner. One bite me, the another he would take. Those memories stayed with me till this date. There is no love so purer than my parents love. If there is, I am yet to encounter it.
The other day, I was just sitting and thinking about what if I fell in love with living? What if the sun I feel during winters on my skin was all that mattered at that moment. My mother’s cooked food, my fathers encouraging words, my friend’s daily stories were all that matters at that moment? And yes, it’s all that all matters.
I hope you too see, how beautiful are those memories with papa playing with our little self, our Mumma cooking our favourite dish, we fighting with our friends over little things and the next moment we are laughing again. Those dreams I once dreamt, those plans for the future.
It’s hard sometimes to always remember these memories when I am facing some problems, none of these happy moments come to me at that time. But then I remind myself, it’s a short life. It’s not going to last forever. And I bear the pain. What can I do after all about it? Not everything is under my control. So I accept the pain, the situation, whatever is happening just the way it is, and wait for it to pass patiently.
And the next moment comes, and the sun shines again, and I make new plans, I see a new dream with the same hope. I make new beautiful memories to cherish for life. This is life.
I want to quote a beautiful part from my favourite song, lost stars by Keira Knightley, ( you should listen to it though ) –
God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It’s hunting season and this lamb is on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars trying to light up the dark?
Who are we? Just a speck of dust within the galaxy
‘Woe is me’ if we’re not careful turns into reality
Don’t you dare let all these memories bring you sorrow
Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer
Turn the page, maybe we’ll find a brand new ending
Where we’re dancing in our tears and
I am a very complex person with lots of things going in my life. You will always see me crying in front of God. Always. but I try not to let it take over me. If I can do it, then why don’t you also try it the next time?! Life is not easy on anyone.
C’mon go out and feel the sun on your skin tomorrow. Hopefully, it will come out. ( though the fun fact about the sun is it always comes out)