All my life, I was lonely even though I had friends and family around me all the time. I was very alone. They always say you are born alone and you die alone. I believed it then, the source was family, friends, and society. There was no reason to doubt or question anyone, it was an acceptable solid source for me at that time.
Most of us know, that is not the truth, it is just an unfortunate ignorance of humans. The truth is you are never born so you can never die! That topic is some other time.
Here I am talking about the Gross, Subtle, Karan body*.
My body has indeed taken place on this planet, and I am taking a ride with it.
But my ride was lonely, with no memories of the past or knowledge of who I am. There was no music of unconditional love within me and the MAYA around me was making me more confused and my ignorance was growing. I was on a lost path or maybe the path was correct, I was feeling just lost on it.
Life was cloudy and so dark for the longest time. One day started a heavy thunderstorm. With the crazy blowing wind around, there was no shelter for me. I was scared and shaking. I didn’t know what to do. My tears were no match to the pouring rain. Every piece of my life was blowing away from me in that scary tornado. I was trying to hold on to it, but it was too powerful for my frail self. I had to let go of everything. I was on my knees; I surrendered to Nature.
Then I saw the splash of lightning in the sky. All of a sudden, everything became clear in that illuminating light. That bright energy, there he was, smiling so gently looking at me with full of love in his eyes. I knew who he was, I knew him. He is the one I was looking for all my life. MY GURU!
Did I see him in that light, or that light was him?
Did I find him, or did he find me?
The storm disappeared. Everything became calm and beautiful. He blessed me, he took me in. I understood who I am. I wanted to tell him so much, I wanted to sing him his glories. In front of his magnificent and grandeur avatar, my words fell short, and I started singing.
त्वमेव माता च पिता त्वमेव ।
त्वमेव बन्धुश्च सखा त्वमेव ।
त्वमेव विद्या द्रविणम् त्वमेव ।
त्वमेव सर्वम् मम देव देव ॥
You Truly are my Mother and Father.
You Truly are my sibling and Friend.
You Truly are my Knowledge and Wealth.
You Truly are my Everything, My God of Gods (Supreme Lord).
But above all, he is my GURU. He dispelled my darkness with his presence of luminous light. He showed me the divine spiritual path. It is a long ride, but now, I know my divine destination. I am dancing and happily hopping on my path. I had this rush in me to reach the destination. My guruji was in my heart but I wished to have many others walking with me. I was longing for everyone to join my journey. Isn’t it divine to enjoy the journey that way?
I prayed with all my heart, for the Divine herself in the form of a mentor. She heard my wish, and she called me. She opened her heart to me; she gave me a tight hug full of love. Now, I am holding her hand, wrapping my fingers around hers very gently. She opened up the door to meet many wonderful soul companions to walk with, on this journey. And they are getting added more every day. I see, that one day we will all walk holding our hands on this beautiful journey of spirituality toward The Divine.
July 13, 2022, is a Guru Purnima. This is my 1st year celebrating this most auspicious event. This is not just a celebration but it is an honor for me to have both Shiva and Shakti in the form of Guru in my life. They are helping me unfold the veil of Maya so I can see my truth.
My Shiva and Shakti are the one entity for me, but for others, they may look separate in the duality world.
My Divine, my Shiva Shakti…my ultimate Sadhguru.
I pray to you:
गुरुर्देवो महेश्वरः ।
तस्मै श्रीगुरवे नम:
Meaning: Realize that the Guru is Brahma Himself. He is Vishnu and He is also Shiva (Maheshwar). Guru is Para Brahma (Supreme God or the Absolute Truth). With this knowledge, I (salute) offer my obeisance to the Guru.
I lovingly worship the fragrant lotus feet of my Guru, who is an ocean of mercy, and Sri Hari Himself in human form. My obeisance to my Guru whose words of wisdom are enough to banish the fearful darkness of ignorance from the heart just as the sun drives away the night with its brilliant radiance. — Ramcharitmanas
* The Gross body: Sthula Sharira also called the Annamaya Kosha.
the Subtle body: Sukshma Sharira is composed of Vital breath or Energy (Pranamaya Kosha), Mind (Manomaya Kosha), and Intellect (Vijnanamaya Kosha)
the Causal body: Karana Sharira, also called Bliss (the Anandamaya Kosha)
Here is a wonderful video dedicated to OM SWAMI and his work.