A Guru is known by the disciples he keeps. His teachings reflect in the progress of disciples.
What better way to pay my respects than to put here my report card, for all to see. See the abundance of Grace from my Guru and feel what I really want to say in HIS praises.🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️
Swamiji, I may not have been able to keep my personal determination of NOT SHOUTING BACK till Guru poornima, ( 4 falls till date) but I AM your proud disciple, for sure. I am totally guilt free now. I can put my hand on my heart and say that yes, I talk to myself daily, listen to myself daily and try my best to live life to my best ability daily. One day at a time. Just one day at a time.
Here is my progress report :-
Physical level –
Swamiji, my chronic sinusitis is totally in control since 2-3 years. While earlier it was every 4-6 months taking anti biotics for weeks together, now I don’t remember when it was last time.
Yes, I take care and have totally stopped cold water, cold drinks and almost total ban on A.C. But my truth is that without GRACE, I could never have been able to do self efforts. Who’s this I? Am nothing. Only GRACE is playing in my life.
Mental and Emotional Level –
Swamiji, mind has become manageable since last 12-14 months and feels long peaceful tenures, lasting for weeks and it expands to a month, sometimes . Earlier, every day there was stuff happening inside as well as outside and there was total chaos. Without GRACE, this could not have happened.
Emotionally such stability has come that I have survived without Ashram visit for so long – since July’2019. You keep visiting in dreams and whole day we are together. All around GRACE, in such a beautiful way.
Spiritual Level –
Swamiji, Maa has accepted me🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️. Someone as sinful, downtrodden and flawed as me who had not even heard about Lalita Sahastranama stotra till 53 years, was showered with so much GRACE. My baggage of sins was so heavy that Maa had not even called me at Devi Bhagwat Retreat in Ashram. Yet, She has graced me with her names.
Now, I am baggage free, Swamiji. Almost. Chanting Maa’s names is so mesmerising.
I am full.
No more yearning for anything.
Flowing with the flow.
I don’t know how to put bhaav into proper words. My progress report is a testimony that its only and only GRACE. With some surrender and some mindfulness and a lot of Gratitude, this has enriched me so………….. m u c h.
I am one of the richest in this world.
No sadhna, no tapas, no meditation. Only GRACE GRACE and GRACE.
स्वाँस स्वाँस सिमरो गोविन्द
मन अंतर की उतरे चिंत
Hari Bol 🌹
Jai Shri Hari🌹