A very warm and happy Jai Sri Hari to each one of you. πŸ™πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜πŸ’πŸ’πŸ’

It has been a fortnight since I am waiting for 4th April to arrive soooonnn… The fact is I could not wait! The waiting turned in to week-long celebration and an experience of close proximity with the Lord within. With burst of poem enabling to express blessings.Β 

As I sat in front of Lord or away from His sight, his thoughts and smile kept on pulling me back or let’s say I kept returning. Yes, I did.

Once I sat in front of Sri Hari Bhagwaan and without using words with a way of rising emotion I expressed how painful and undesirable it is to even get up from his sight to return for another darshan. Let alone going back altogether! It was like a emotional plead and Sri Hari Bhagwaan seem to hear such prayers and pleadings much effectively than the worded ones, in my experience.

If I must say more

I should put my heart out

and let you feel the rest.

Words won’t do anymore!Β 

So, I have been waiting like each one of us must be waiting, I suppose.

May I humbly take this blog post as an opportunity to share lovely glimpses of Sri Hari Bhagwaan’s Birthday. I actually had not plan to write any further than what I wrote above along with the poem shared at the end but as I write this post, flow of thoughts and inspiration to share has dawned on me. Somehow I didn’t feel I would be the most appropriate to go through these divine flashback. So, my apologies if any mistake of any sort is made.

Again, I feel hesitant but the inspiration persist, almost meaning – We have members at os.me which have yet not visited/read/heard about Lord’s glory. This thought convinced me to write and share further, I strongly feel each one of us must feel the love of Bhagwaan especially when Sri Hari Birthday is coming and we don’t get to visit due to covid restrictions. Because as I sit to write I can think of many devotees and even ashram residents who can write similar post with more details and up close experience and love and devotion.Β 

It was around this time last year that travel restrictions were put in place and many of us felt so sad for not being able to visit ashram for Sri Hari’s Birthday celebrations. I particularly recall Nancy ji’s love for Bhagwaan. She waits to see Bhagwaan. And her sadness for not being able to go made me feel extremely sad and touchy.

Seeking guidance of revered Swami ji to write this post πŸ™πŸ’

Let’s meet Sri Hari Bhagwaan ji then… πŸ™πŸŒ·β€πŸŒΌ

Sri Hari Bhagwaan ki Jai πŸ™πŸ™ŒπŸ™

11 May 2011 Swami ji had Lord Narayan Darshan. That auspicious day that arrived preceding those years of sadhana even before renunciation.

Just hear one line of Guru ji merely saying on 11 May He had darshan of Chaturbhuj Roop I have played and replayed Vision of the Goddess.Β 

I/We can’t even ask Swami to say a word of that day I always with an hesitant thought to myself!☹️😭πŸ₯Ί

But then Swami encourage to pursue the divine goal as He begins to describe Lord Narayan. My eyes never fail to well up in big heavy tears as I hear Him say –

“…then you will have a chance to meet him. And trust me He is very very very beautiful. He is so beautiful that there is nothing that I know of that can even come close to comparison. It is not possible to explain his beauty. The four- armed form, the two-arm form. The blue light emitting from Him. His most glorious ornaments adorned. His most charismatic smile.Β 

Once you see him there is absolutely nothing in the world that you would like to see. Nothing! There is nothing! Nothing even comes. Absolutely nothing.Β 

And I hope I said it – Nothing!Β 

I am saying it again – Nothing at all.

And why would you want pick a rocks when you have discovered the diamond mines.Β 

The most attractive the supremely attractive. The supremely pure. The supremely beautiful. The most gorgeous. The most enigmatic. The most charismatic. The most beautiful. And the most kind. The most kind. The most caring. The most sensitive. The most intimate. The most of everything. The most of the most! The supreme!Β 

If you take my word for it. His vision is not only worth working for. His vision is worth anything! My last breath I am happy to give it up for Him. He is worth everything you have seen, put all that together and multiple it by a figure so large you can not write on billion pages! He is that beautiful. If you don’t believe me why don’t you experience it yourself!

Here in this video – Devotional Service you can hear Swami ji expound on the glory and way to Sri Hari πŸ’πŸ˜ŠπŸ’πŸ™‡β€β™€οΈ

Swami ji never speak about Lord Narayan was my incessant cry and a complaint to him as well apart from one more pleading! And He guided me to this discourse and few more. πŸ˜ƒπŸ₯ΊπŸ™πŸŒΌ

You may think I am someone who desires/seek or want Lord Narayan darshan. Never ever not even once did I desire to have His darshan! But when I sit in front of him so empty. He speaks through His smile. His varied emotion gently changed from gleaming-ly happy to a smile subservent to a concern or a pain to a celebratory delight’s beaming happiness to loving smile of warmth and adoration. All that and even more. 😌 Now when I sit in front of Bhagwaan it almost feels like a form will walk out of the vigraha!Β 

He invokes that in me (and you) who was I to sow seeds of such longing! A desire, after all is a desire. Sitting in front of Sri Hari with divine desire or a puny little request don’t make sense to me.

Before Bhagwaan arrived on the land where Sri Badrika Ashram stands was a location scarce of flora but capable of immense beauty – A lovely piece of land near Shamalu.

Above is still from discourse titled Self Purification by Swami ji!Β 

Our Swami ji arrived on this land on Sharad Purnima 2011 while most respected Swami Vidyanand ji arrived the same day and waited for Swami ji. My obeisance to Vidya Swami ji for everything that He has enabled ever since ashram foundation stone was laid. We all are soaking in those efforts put by them. I can not express enough, my thanks and gratitude to the ever silent one. His devotional songs was my first introduction of devotion to Swami ji. πŸ˜ŠπŸ™πŸ€—

Ashram land now. If you look at this pic, you can see Swami ji's old cottage peaking from the top seeing us all 🀩

How amazing it feels to know, the spiral path that comes down on the mountain road we travel to reach the abode of Sri Hari was treaded by Sri Hari Himself for the first time when his idol arrived at the land which was to be known as Muktikshetra Sri Badrika Ashram.Β 

The kacha road that we travel to reach ashram! I thoroughly enjoy each drive on that path. My excitement can’t be worded!

The path most of us have traveled and those who will travel soon! πŸ˜ƒ