Not knowing – is a very uncomfortable state of our mind. It’s very difficult for our mind to fathom this state. Because that means giving up control surrendering to the situation, right? The logical mind always wants to know the whys and when? It always questions. Some questions from our daily conversations:
‘Okay I will call you tomorrow.’
Pat comes the reply ‘What time tomorrow?’
‘May be morning half…’
‘But what time exactly?’
‘I will work on this and send you the file.’
‘Can’t say… a couple of days maybe…’
‘Tomorrow or day after…when exactly?’
‘I said 2 days, didn’t I?’ exasperatedly.
In case a relative is admitted to a hospital. Another relative calls and says ’Ohh…so sorry to know…’
‘When is he going to be discharged?’
‘When he recovers…’
‘But when tentatively?’
Husband ‘I am going out with friends today for dinner. I will be late.’
Wife ‘What time will you be back?’
‘I don’t know okay! And even if I give you a rough time you will hang around that time and keep calling…so can’t say.’
Many a times we don’t have the exact answers yet the mind still persists with its exactitude. And if it can’t get the exact time or date even the tentative ones will do.
The questioning mind doesn’t stop. If not exact it needs at least estimates. Dealing with unknowns is something that the mind is not trained for.
Was reading A Fistful of Wisdom by Om Swami. In the book Swamiji has thrown some light on our questioning mind. He says:
The conscious mind coated by conditioning rejoices in calculations, in analysis and exploration. It thrives on curiosity; feeds on inquisitiveness. On the one side imagine having a mind that is endlessly asking questions, the same mind is addressing them, fielding them, dodging and answering them. That is probably how human intellect has developed over millions of years.
It is like giving a clay to a child. He keeps on creating different forms till the charm remains and then he molds all figurines back into a ball and leaves it aside. He may repeat the process till he grows out of it or gets another toy.
Similarly, your conscious mind keeps you busy, it wants to keep you fascinated, keep you engaged. It gets tiring after a while. Just like physical matter mental matter can neither be destroyed nor created; it can only ever be transformed.
He further explains that the answer to the Questioning mind can only be found with the Quiet mind:
Imagine a mind that is diving in an infinite ocean of bliss; it has gone quiet. It is alert, conscious, super conscious in fact but it is not bogging you down with endless questions about some philosophy, some abstract theory you want to plug into tangible thesis.
Instead, it keeps you focused, your energies channelized, escalating your awareness to an entirely new level. Your most profound answers will emerge from a state of quietude.
In quiescence, you start to understand what is important to know versus what is more relevant; your answers will no longer produce more questions and more answers and more questions and so on.
It will come to a stop. You have to experience that state to know what I mean. I can only show the path, your deliverance depends on you alone. It does not come from scavenging second-hand knowledge, it comes from a dawning of inner wisdom; it is the outcome of quieting your mind so you may see the real you.
It is easier to see what lies beneath the water when it is clear and still. I encourage you to tread the path of attaining quietude to experience a constant flow of bliss, you will get all the answers, more importantly, you will get all the right questions.
So, the next time my mind goes:
When will coronavirus end? How many more waves are we going to experience? When will normal life commence? And so on and so forth with millions of other questions. I know the mind is just being itself and also that the answer lies in – quietude, in meditation, in contemplation and connecting to my inner self.