It was but two days ago,
At our Bhagwan’s abode,
When I was serenading Maa,
In my unmelodious voice.
But I know She loved it,
For She smiled,
And so, I did too.
Quickly looking around me,
With no one else in sight,
I broke into another song.
In my mind,
I sang and I danced.
I had the most melodious voice,
And was the best dancer in the world.
Now I am back in the world,
Without my Maa.
She is with me, and yet She eludes me.
It tears me, it rips me apart.
Of some 2500 kilometres.
I miss my home.
I miss my Sri Hari.
I miss my Swami.
I miss waking up excited,
Rushing to the temple,
To the chanting of the thousands of names of the Lord.
I miss singing the arti,
Watching Sadhvi Vrinda Ji smile,
In Love with her Bhagwan.
I miss Sadhvi Ji’s singing,
Her gentle loving smile,
I miss gazing at Bhagwan’s soft cheeks,
Wondering what it would be like to touch them.
I miss collecting flowers for Swami Ji’s padukas.
I miss those little moments
Walking into the library every morning,
Going to the dining hall,
Finding the spot that faces the temple.
I miss Karuna ji distributing prasadam,
Made lovingly by her for the Lord,
Every day, without fail,
Come illness or injury.
I miss Wally and Goldy’s fights,
Toffee stealing my slippers,
And Teju sitting as calm as ever.
I miss the mountains that would surround us,
As if protecting us from the harsh world.
I miss the blanket of stars that would cover us,
Showering us with blessings.
I miss Vanika ji’s sweetness,
As she’d distribute flowers from Swami Ji’s padukas,
To devotees every evening.
I miss hearing Suvi Ji and Didi sing,
Melodious and full of love,
Putting our Bhagwan to sleep.
I miss the beautiful humans I met.
The kindest and most compassionate.
The ever smiling and happy Basu Ji,
Along with his sweet wife Kirtee Ji.
I miss the kind and talented Gandhaali Ji,
And the beautiful, hard-working Kirthi Ji.
I miss the kindest Anand ji,
Who showered me with lots of love, hope and blessings.
I miss my Sri Hari,
I miss my Swami Ji.
I miss my Devi Maa.
How to be in this world,
When I just visited heaven?