IN THE PALM OF THE HORIZON
There is no standard procedure for the spiritual path. If we have chosen a certain path, sooner or later we will be convinced that this one path also has its paths. There are a lot of different realizations, meanings and informations.
My path is to constantly discover new paths along the way. My goal is all new paths, all new discoveries and all new insights. For me, there is nothing completely defined, everything is always open. Every path is holy, every path has its winners. My navigation is my inner compass, my personality and the moment I’m in. Each path contains moments, so every moment I decide again on the philosophy of my life. Only when you’re in samadhi, trance, happy enlightenment, then your path and the moment in which you exist are completely aligned. Then everything has a different meaning.
The safest way is to find some higher meaning for yourself, your life and the people around you. Then the path and the meaning become one and you don’t have to worry about life flows. Then all the paths are in the palm of your horizon. And that’s fine.
Jai Shri Hari!
Today I got an uncommon doubt which never arouse within me, I always thought I was capable of becoming more spiritual and Attain Mahadeva within this lifetime, but by looking back at myself I became more emotional and depressed 😔 than ever. (Sorry for this long question)
Can a normal person like me who is struggling to break the hardened tendencies of mind, who is indisciplined to practice meditation or sadhana, who is less mindful of his thoughts, speech and actions, who is controlled by the mind instead of making it listen to him, who is fallen under the trap of worldy pleasures, who is wasting his precious time, who forgets the wisdom received from his intellect and gets engaged in the guidance of his five senses, who is less compassionate or truthful (finds hard to follow all the virtues of a sadhak), who is bombarded with impure and negative thoughts, who is egoistic and overconfident, who often gets angry to small things, who has no spiritual experiences so far, who is less devotional, who finds it hard to surrender, who isn't even worthy to worship his isht, who isn't even capable of becoming a recipient of Divine's grace: Can become self realised within this lifetime?
I know it's never late but something inside really haunts me: What if
Har Har Mahadev!
Congratulations and I deeply respect your courage to accept your infirmities (I won't call them flaws) as nobody is flawless. It's only those who knows and accept them and start to work on each flaw step by step, one at a time can remove them and replace them with the positive one. That's what spiritual transformation is. Good news is that, there is no age limit to begin with. You can start anywhere and anytime. And of course, Mahadev is purely bhole, innocent. Why not, walk the path, see how Mahadev takes you.
And don't worry about afflictions, if you desire this, then you must have the courage to remove them to walk towards light. All it takes your willingness. Have a happy journey!!
Hope this helps.
Jai Sri Hari 🙏
In a bid to understand myself better, and embark on the journey of self healing; I tried to reach the deepest recesses of my mind to bring me the experiences and emotions I might have bottled up in my being. That made me travel all the way back to my early years of life. Hey, when was the first time, I committed something to my memory that is still remembered! This got me to this query. Would you like to explore with me?
My mother's face.
- I wrote a very elaborate answer here on the basis of Jyotish Shastra. Check that out.
- One very conventional method is to worship Ganesha. If properly done, he directs you to your ishta devata.
- Meditating on the Hrim Beeja: In the book Vedic Remedies in Astrology by Pt. Sanjay Rath, it's advised to meditate on the Hrim Beeja everyday for around 15 minutes. It states that practice will bring you a dream or experience of your ishta devata, by which you can know who that is.
During meditation, when I close my eyes I see blue light , like a halo, like a small circle on brow plexus.
What does it mean?
It could be anything. The crucial thing is, it's a sign, a signal that you've been doing something right.
Countless experiences come during the journey of meditation. Light shows, vibration shows, energy dance, nectar and trans etc.
Feel free to enjoy it a bit if it seems pleasing, and then move on. Onto the next experience, to the next milestone.
The road is long
But its width is narrow
The seeker can rest
Enjoy the shade and fest
But relax not until it reaches
To the place where the road ends
Of the pleasures, wishes and endeavors.
Jai Sri Hari 🙏